2006-12-21 - ~Our Differences Are The Same~
2006-11-03 - -
2006-11-03 - -
2006-11-02 - -
2006-10-30 - -
2006-10-29 - -
2006-10-28 - ~the hole in my soul~
2006-09-30 - ~more than anything~
2006-06-21 - ~Opening My Wounds Again To Heal~
2006-06-21 - ~just another missing piece of me~
2006-06-18 - -
2006-06-16 - ~Storm Of The Sea~
2006-06-15 - ~My Heart's Cataclysmic Lesions Of Love~
2006-06-15 - ~Absent~
2006-06-15 - ~My 5y5tem Sett1n9s~
2006-06-12 - ~Forgotten Happiness~
2006-06-11 - ~Insides Out~
2006-06-06 - ~Tears~
2006-05-16 - -
2006-05-07 - ~You've changed everything~
2006-05-02 - -
2006-05-02 - -
2006-05-02 - -
2006-05-01 - ~Endtrails~
2006-04-24 - ~temporary forever~ ~V
2006-04-24 - "breath taken out from my chest" ~IV
2006-04-24 - "forever temporary" ~III
2006-04-24 - "pressure desperate wonderings" ~II
2006-04-24 - "I swear I never knew how it could be" ~I
2006-04-21 - ~Thinking Unbearible~
2006-04-17 - ~How You've Effected Me~
2006-04-13 - ~Blowing The Dust Of Tears Away~
2006-04-12 - ~Bitter Reflections~
2006-04-07 - ~American Consumer~
2006-04-02 - -
2006-03-31 - ~Dreaming Of The Day Before Every Yesterday~
2006-03-29 - ~Rot~
2006-03-27 - ~Delicate Bruse(an emotional mess)~
2006-03-27 - ~Openly Accepting~
2006-02-08 - ~Cascading Decay~
2006-01-31 - living through my death (a strange coincidence to this diary's user title)
2006-01-17 - ~passing times~
2006-01-17 - -
2006-01-17 - ~true happiness lies in two parts~
2006-01-10 - ~impulses~
2005-10-28 - ~cracking inner cruelty and desire's devastate breath~
2005-10-22 - ~fun with words~
2005-10-22 - ~the emptiness obtained~
2005-10-22 - ~composing my decomposition~
2005-10-14 - ~rehearse~
2005-09-08 - ~spiral of ropes hanging us downwards~
2005-09-08 - ~absent to high waves~
2005-09-08 - ~woken up from pretending to be happy~
2005-09-08 - -
2005-09-06 - ~layers of filth~
2005-09-01 - ~jail of purple and blue lit water~
2005-08-29 - ~cut open for the cold sacred voids~
2005-08-22 - ~the death of me~
2005-08-22 - ~cracked flowering glass to cut~
2005-08-19 - ~distant tongues speak such silence~
2005-04-05 - to heal from the decay of the past
2005-04-05 - tragedy happens to everyone
2005-03-01 - every star rising at once... every sun
2005-03-01 - ( )
2005-02-16 - all of the coming undone left unsaid
2005-02-11 - "if these scars could speak"
2004-12-12 - -
2004-12-09 - ~two~
2004-12-06 - ~falling tears leaving emptiness to our eyes~
2004-12-05 - ~her complete withdraw of words upon betrayal~
2004-12-02 - ~soiled in the seed of my humanity~
2004-11-26 - ~My Vow Of Devotion~
2004-11-26 - ~light from the dark~
2004-11-24 - ~it itself has a taste~
2004-11-19 - ~only reason~
2004-11-16 - ~Remembering Our Sleep~
2004-11-16 - ~Life Without Is Only A Slow Fatality I Can't Take~
2004-10-25 - ~Wearing The Broken Mask From My Past~
2004-10-22 - ~A God Without Awnsers~
2004-09-27 - -
2004-09-21 - ~Once Inside Of You~
2004-09-16 - emptiness
2004-09-13 - ~Within Eachother~
2004-09-09 - -
2004-09-04 - ~lost again and again and again~
2004-09-04 - ~our time to feel that life is love~
2004-08-29 - -
2004-08-28 - ~The Lust Of Our Prayers In Our Cathedral Of Pleasure~
2004-08-26 - ~lost so unexpectedly~
2004-08-24 - ~change of plans~
2004-08-18 - ~The Beautiful Sunrise Over Everything~
2004-08-15 - ~Megan's Writing For Me About My Past With Jessica~
2004-08-13 - ~how I was left~
2004-08-12 - ~tapping my veins and holding me like her shield~
2004-08-11 - ~laying in bed at night by red light~
2004-08-11 - ~dying dreams~
2004-08-09 - ~my overwealming lust~
2004-08-09 - ~inlove with her until far past my end~
2004-08-08 - ~When It Is Already Over~
2004-08-07 - ~Distant Relationship~
2004-08-06 - ~The Passing Times~
2004-07-27 - -
2004-07-26 - ~your coma medication~
2004-07-25 - ~grey and empty as lost and gone~
2004-07-24 - ~love kills pt.1~
2004-07-17 - ~meaningless devotions~
2004-07-12 - ~...and today~
2004-07-12 - ~The End Of Everything~
2004-07-12 - ~dying hopes~
2004-07-04 - ~my within~
2004-07-04 - ~ruined~
2004-07-02 - ~Of Death And Its Pleasures~
2004-06-30 - ~His Desire's Twisted Downfall~
2004-06-29 - ~the self confessional ending~
2004-06-29 - ~the darkness of the tides~
2004-06-28 - ~Everything At Once~
2004-06-28 - ~The Emptiness Of A Dead King~
2004-06-25 - ~To The Two Timing Lover~
2004-06-20 - ~Hands Of A Ghost That Is Myself~
2004-06-17 - ~The Reality Of Dreams~
2004-06-17 - -
2004-06-11 - ~The Lost Of Myself~
2004-06-11 - ~Dreams Of Eternity~
2004-06-11 - ~Locked Away~
2004-06-11 - ~Disgust, Dispise And Regret~
2004-06-06 - ~...Could Never Be Undone~
2004-05-30 - ~Lies Cause Heaven Knows We Never Cry~
2004-05-25 - ~Still Holding My Memories~
2004-05-25 - ~Safe And Awake~
2004-05-25 - ~Wicked Wishes~
2004-05-25 - ~Bled Away Into Tonight~
2004-05-23 - ~Passing Memory~
2004-05-20 - ~Eternity's Sleep Of Together~
2004-04-26 - ~The Past Is Lost To Us~
2004-04-26 - ~When All Dreams Have Died~
2004-04-22 - ~Dreams Of Memories~ ... ~Deep In Sea~
2004-03-18 - ~I believed you~
2004-03-18 - ~As Oceans Dry~
2004-03-17 - ~Lost~
2004-03-16 - -
2004-03-16 - ~Sleeping Alone Beside You~
2004-03-15 - ~stream of emotions~
2004-03-11 - -
2004-03-10 - ~Blue Skies Of Pain~
2004-02-20 - ~beliefs of freedom~
2004-02-20 - ~a shallow bleeder~
2004-02-19 - ~tired of tomarrow~
2004-02-19 - ~so much to wake up to~
2004-02-19 - ~changing times~
2004-02-13 - ~Just Another End~
2004-02-08 - ~Without~
2004-02-04 - ~Am I Good Enough?~
2004-02-04 - ~Everything Is Now~
2004-02-03 - ~A Silent Silhouette Of Sadness To Always Surround Me~
2004-02-03 - unfinished thoughts
2004-02-01 - ~Cavities Of The Lost~
2004-02-01 - ~Washing Through Warmth~
2004-01-18 - ~Cried Rivers Of Blood Into Oceans Of Doubt~
2003-12-16 - ~Nothing Said To Seperate Two~
2003-12-01 - ~Recent Words(but from days ago)~
2003-11-23 - ~Ashamed For Wanting To Kiss Her Hand~
2003-11-23 - ~Promise Me~
2003-11-23 - ~Broken and Empty, Like my Flesh~
2003-11-23 - ~Blood Loss While In Dreaming Of You~
2003-11-20 - ~Machines Flooding Together For Purpose~
2003-11-19 - ~I've Came To Watch You Burn My Lover~
2003-11-19 - ~Our Black Rain~
2003-11-19 - ~My Love Is My Life~
2003-11-19 - ~Our Promises Flourish Us As One~
2003-11-17 - ~Going To Join You~
2003-11-14 - ~How To Bring A Corpse To Life~
2003-11-13 - ~Human Impulses~
2003-11-13 - ~Twilight~
2003-11-13 - ~Paying With Flesh~
2003-11-13 - ~Without~
2003-11-12 - ~Forced To Be... Forced To Be With Me~
2003-11-12 - ~I Am Not Part Of Me~
2003-11-12 - ~Broken Flesh Can't Be Healed~
2003-11-10 - ~Looking Over My Arms~
2003-11-09 - ~A Morning's Ocean Of Pain Induced Rain Running Through Me~
2003-11-09 - ~My Closed Eyes So Broken And Blue~
2003-11-09 - ~In The Black Of Darkness~
2003-11-08 - ~Frozen Tears Can't Fall~
2003-11-06 - ~Directly Effected~
2003-11-05 - ~The Strings That Keep Us Together~
2003-10-30 - ~Still...~
2003-10-26 - ~Make My Life Complete-Bring It To The End~
2003-10-23 - ~Falling Apart Like Burning Paper~
2003-10-18 - ~Death In The Depths Of Your Lovely Life~
2003-10-18 - ~My Heart Is Far Too Broken To Hold Your Love~
2003-10-14 - ~Falling~
2003-10-12 - ~Corey, Promise Me You Will Never Kill Yourself...~
2003-10-12 - ~Evil Desires Came To Play With Us~
2003-10-12 - ~My Meaning Of Life~
2003-10-10 - ~My Blood Has Yet To Fill My Heart(as you have)~
2003-10-09 - ~The Wayward Love Of A Fucked Soul~
2003-10-08 - ~Broken Upon Birth~
2003-10-07 - ~My Instinct To Fall Inlove~
2003-10-02 - ~A Taste Of Faith~
2003-09-26 - ~As I Part~
2003-09-25 - ~RunAway~
2003-09-24 - ~The Unsupervised Child~
2003-09-23 - ~Dying Inlove~
2003-09-23 - ~The True Cold King Of Winter's Love~
2003-09-20 - ~Heart Full Of Hurt~
2003-09-17 - ~The Leaving~
2003-09-13 - ~Thoughts For An Open Mind (Positive Thoughts)~
2003-09-11 - ~Dreaming Of Death~
2003-09-11 - ~The Last Thing To Live For~
2003-09-10 - ~As I Was There For You~
2003-09-09 - ~My End~
2003-09-08 - ~It Takes Years To Drown In My Water~
2003-08-24 - ~I Lost You~
2003-08-23 - ~Wishes Could Never Turn True (I Wish That I Was Good Enough)~
2003-08-21 - ~The Cost Of Being Me... The Cost Of Loving You~
2003-08-21 - ~Consumption Of A Night's Love~
2003-08-20 - ~Dreamless... Dying As Crying From Pain~
2003-08-17 - ~Tears For The Rain~
2003-08-17 - ~Our Sedatives For Memories~
2003-08-09 - ~My Life Was A Gift~
2003-08-07 - ~Your Tried To Fuck My Existence~
2003-08-05 - ~at peace~
2003-08-04 - ~Death's Life In You (Damnation)~
2003-08-04 - ~A Doll To Accompany This Lonely Puppet (Hope)~
2003-08-04 - ~The Mannequin Dying~
2003-08-03 - ~Life's Story~
2003-07-26 - ~I Was Given Life And I Was Also Given Death~
2003-07-26 - ~The Night's High Tide Of Life~
2003-07-22 - ~As I Lay Dying... (The Moment Of Death~Forgive Me) Die Smiling~
2003-07-22 - ~If Only You Where Here~
2003-07-22 - ~Somethings Wrong With Spending Forever Without You~
2003-07-22 - ~Whispering Voices To Keep Me Lonely~
2003-07-22 - ~Nothing Has Changed With Me, With You???~
2003-07-17 - ~Wet With Blood... Dry From Pain~
2003-07-15 - ~The End Of The Light~
2003-07-14 - ~My Love (Faith) Left Me~
2003-07-09 - ~Dead Relationship~
2003-07-06 - ~One Way Of Life~
2003-07-06 - ~ *yet another entry about being in Coma* ~
2003-07-06 - ~The Winter's Moon Is Bright Within Me Tonight~
2003-07-01 - ~I Lust You And I~
2003-06-30 - ~Overnight Sleep For Every Tomarrow's Solitude~
2003-06-25 - ~One True Love Is Now Felt Again~
2003-06-25 - ~With Our Love?~
2003-06-12 - ~The Curse Of The Empty Life~
2003-06-12 - ~Two Nocturnal Till Lunar Landing~
2003-06-12 - ~Miles Between, Hours Without~
2003-06-12 - ~The Crimson Sleep~
2003-06-10 - ~Relations~
2003-06-04 - ~We Have Everything And Nothing~
2003-05-27 - ~ the First ~ the Final ~
2003-05-22 - ~With Beauty Like Yours~
2003-05-12 - ~My Tattoos~
2003-05-10 - ~Destined Memory, A Blur Of Passion Without Regret~
2003-05-10 - ~She's The Beauty Of My Life~
2003-04-25 - ~(1st part of)Everything~
2003-04-25 - ~The BlackBlank Line Between Forbidden Fantasy And Wronging Reality~
2003-03-20 - ~Within Our Wish Death Is In Season~
2003-03-14 - ~I Want You Still~
2003-02-05 - ~Winters Cold Love Commitment~
2002-12-04 - ~Happiness In Life~
2002-11-22 - ~Dead Life~
2002-11-17 - ~Love Lost In Depression~
2002-10-21 - ~What Could Have Been~
2002-10-16 - ~Fucking Myself From The Inside (Will You Fuck Who I Am?)~
2002-10-10 - ~Dream Of Her Naked With Pain~
2002-10-09 - ~Without You~
2002-10-07 - ~Pleasure Of Drinking Lust~
2002-09-29 - ~Three Hours (third final version)~
2002-09-29 - ~Three Hours (second version)~
2002-09-26 - ~Three Hours (first time told)~
2002-09-25 - ~Regret (Living In My Past Casing Memories)~
2002-09-25 - ~The Bond Between Water And Flesh~
2002-09-25 - ~Pushing From Fear~
2002-09-22 - ~Cutting For Release (The Blood That Falls... The Tears That Splash)~
2002-09-19 - ~From Desired Dream To Reality~
2002-09-19 - ~Thrown Regret~
2002-09-19 - ~The Sensation Of Everything Turning To Nothing~
2002-09-19 - ~Knowing Coralyss~
2002-09-19 - ~I Live For This And I Die For You~
2002-09-19 - ~I Don't Want To Be Alone~